How many people who thinks that their less or better than anyone?

I think in some point, unconsciously we said

“Man...She/he’s better than me”-meaning I’m less than him

Or even said

“haha that man is suck, he can even draw a circle!” –meaning ‘I’m better than him

When I said this is not only applied in art worlds, is in every aspect of life. We tend to compare ourselves with others, concentrate on what we don’t have.

I do often compare my self with other in the past, just like teenager who tries to find herself in the world, surrounded by genius and beautiful people; it is very easy to say to my self I’m less good than anyone that I’m hard to find my own self which is result having a very low confidence and other child memories that might bring me and other people who have same situation with mine, furthermore, in the common society, to be Good in general –stick to the mainstream is very well accepted, comparing other people who is better than whom is just like daily routines and said “whoa I’ll ne better if I look like her/him”.

When I think about it, it is pretty much useless, I really laugh about it. I was forget that Dear Lord create human different from each other. So why that I bother with the thing that I don’t have?

Can we accept that everyone is having different qualities, strength and weakness, their own uniqueness?

The thought that I’m less than anyone because I don’t have this, I don’t have that, is the worst way to kill our unique self, you close your chance to be different…and to have opinion that “I’m better than her/him” is also the way to stop your self to bloom, close your own room for your improvement .

Research said people who always think that he/she is better than any people have less tolerance, less empathy, no respect with other  that bring you hardship, less happiness in your life, would I or even you try to living like that? That’s quite sad.

For art stuff, have you seen same concept artworks or even portrait, even one person do concept about “dream” it will be different from other people concept about “dream”, other thing , look closely portrait works, two people paint the same person, it will give different result and mood. That’s’ unique quality, don’t think about who is better but think about how we improve.

From now on, just be my/yourself and accept everyone is different and see how beautiful things turn out, probably is hard to do, but with the faith, we’ll move on.

Aulia

 

 

Have you ever heard someone saying that you should be the way they are thinking?

Like one day, you took psychology class and other people who don't know you start making assumptions that you are very serious and they can talk their entire problem to you? Since they might think, you're psychology student; you might know the solution. I think in some way you're already labeled person without you realized yourself or even they doesn't mean it that way.

That's common thing in society, but if the real person inside you that might far from people expectations, want to be "present"...I will say " just let it out, don't be frighten" and saying...

"it's okay to be my self".

If people start to disappoint that you're not the person that they labeled to, you don't have to start hating yourself, start to find what the best inside instead.

Like medical student who probably lack of knowledge about how to cure, voila you can laugh about it, start to learn and you probably good in making people happy and secure, then why don't you use it as your treasure to" cure" in other way? And finding solution to study more about the technical stuff, step by step, I do believe you will find the best of you and other people might see the other beautiful side of you, to become the real and the best of "You". Probably it is far from their "label" but it still useful and represent who you really are.

To be "labeled person" is hard, I guess, I know how it feels, therefore I can write this. When people making high expectation in your self, once you fail, they might not tolerate on what have you done. Don't worry, don't let it go into you head. You'll be okay na ^^

I'm also still let go what people labeled me, like I got use to be labeled as "lazy girl" in high school, gradually I start to think that.."Well I might be lazy", I let it to my head but when I think deeply, if I'm that lazy, will I finish my study, assignments or freelance work on the right time or even far from deadline?

or else that I paint/write some of works/essays seriously, that some people expect me to be quiet and serious person, ahaha they might be disappoint so much that I'm far from like that, my best friends knows me well, in Sundanese they called me "porenges"  J means I always stick that stupid smiley face and laugh hard with my friends

What brought me to write this? It is my thought and some events hits me that I should write this, my friend start to hating herself because she is really down, she doesn't even know herself anymore that she always do what people like her to do, when she's far from her "label", her friends avoid her, her parents start to see her as nuisance, when she doesn't even do any sin.

If you really do love her and called her as a friend or parents, Will you do anything hurt like that?

Will you reach out your hand and said "I accept you the way you are?" If you're not, maybe we should start looking at our self and try to look the people not on their "label" but what inside them.

Aulia

To my Friend , you're not alone there still people who loves you as the way you are.

 

 

 

 

 

Did you know? everyday there was a huge cat always coming at my house
every day, the cat isn't mine, my neighbour own it ^^ but since the
owner is already old-no relative and sometime, she can't even get up
to feed him, therefore, i always give that cute cat some food, when i
open the door, i feel "whoaa, he's coming ".

I used to have pets in the past but i stopped it after my dog
"Brown-kun" got hit by the car, i was 5 years old at that time, so the
memories is always vivid on my mind and i don't want to be sad like
the old days again, my yellowish cat "grafield" is also killed and thrown to sea by my mean relative, yes it is definietly true-no joke about that, i was crying hard at that time ^_^,my Horse "suci"& my rabbit is dead too due to old age, Thanks God i didn't become Emo girl and move forward haha

lets' think them in a good memories but Yep, i stop thinking having pets againbut now when i met Lan-chan, she have dogs and really good and cute dogs, gradually, my heart open again and when i have time ,i will play with that cat even he doesn't even want to be held haha, i think someday, i probably have one again, for now, i try to wait him, every morning, i called him "chubby" and give him the food that he's been looking for, i will love him as the owner always did (who really kind to me-considered me as her grandchild). Let's meet every morning
"Chubby" and smile from the bottom of our heart ^^.

photo by Lan

around my house

other sketches, hem i'll try to sketch some landscape but my friend have it, when i met them again someday, i'll try to borrow and scan it na ^^

For daily life, i met some new friends, they are all talented but still humble, so when they asked me about related stuff, i feel teribly embararassed,
Will i answer correctly with this limited knowledge?

so if i talk very fast or smile stupidly forgive me that i'm teribly nervous but hey.. i try to gather up my confidence na and learn from you too^^
Sometime i hide my works and stuff not because that i hate critics , that's because i'm teribly embarassed, when i think "Voila i made progress!" but when i look it closely..., i don't do much, *digHerOwnCemetary* but voila, i really try to show it and do my best

Last but not least, to my sister and best friend who accepts me the way i am, thanks so much, if i do speak wrong , do kindly correct me

Old sketches

 

hem na, it's late but i want to say happy fasting ^^
My friends say that i should sleep more ^^ because i look like dead fish? haha, more likely "hyper mind" haha. Lately i was too much on pc screen that my pc is crash haha, it is like wake up call, to get up and read some books again and play around with traditional stuff again
but i hope my "相棒  "is recover soon na and start to re-learn digital stuff
last but not least, i'm in urge to have my semi-realism style to come back but alas, my freelance job telling me to achieve realism style
i have to be patience ne, it's normal since my ground is manga stuff
na,manga= my 初恋patience na.

I admit that i rarely to do exercise, so when i start to take my
sketchbook again, it was very shameful and sad at the same time to see
my painting speed decrease very much, Man i have to re-alive painting spirit na
next day i'll try to post my speed sketch, for now this woman sketch
(there's story behind her ^^, yep i start to story telling again in my pict ^^), in the future probably i'll make her more detail, wether in color or not, yosha nexth month start learn together from the basic,
are you ready ? ^^

hello there, i thought i will write something na, for the next month , i will surely post my works again, i'm now much more lurker and doodling something, so wait until i'm ready again, still re-structure my works, meaning, i learn from the bottom, still figure out about our own site

yoroshiku onegai shimasu

Strahan Aulia